Monday, March 31, 2003
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There's this nagging feeling I have that there is something wrong with my life right now. I'm not really sure. It's the work-related stress, I think (I worked yesterday and it was not fun. As in. Sundays are fun, but yesterday, it was not. I was shaking in anger and frustration. Today was not fun either). Argh.
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Tuesday, March 25, 2003
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I missed a great weekend. :( They spent two-plus hours on the road after work and then stayed up 'til six a.m., then they hit the beach from 6 a.m. to 5 p.m. Then they set out for Manila again after the beach. A real summer getaway. I regret not being able to go. *sigh*
I'm not exactly sure why my cough will not go away--my mom says I have to wrap my throat with a... something. Scarf or sweater. Yikes. I hate having anything wrapped around my neck (i.e., turtlenecks or scarves), so obviously, I'm not about to follow her suggestion for that wrap thing. I'm not about to gargle also with salt and hot water. I'll just stick to my antibiotics and stuff. I hit the fifth month at work already. That doesn't sound like much, but for us, it's a big thing. I never thought I would last at that place. Five months ago, I didn't think anything would happen to me--I considered that I would be out of there already. But so far, so good. I'm still there, I'm doing pretty okay (I hope) and I'm learning a lot. I'm also getting along better with people there (yes, I am anti-social pa rin, but you never know), so I am feeling much more comfortable. But sometimes, I wonder, where will I go after this? The idea is kind of overwhelming because there seems to be no end in sight. It's really up to me now to chart my path and lead my life where I want it to be. And that's a scary idea. Decisions like that, seemingly small, can be very tricky. I should know--I think I've made a lot of decisions in the past three years that I sort of regret, but... I don't really know what would've happened now, do I? Hmm, I still sound bitter. *sigh* Now where did that philosophical bent come from? It just started out with a weekend I missed.
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Friday, March 21, 2003
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Bummer being sick, I swear.
I wasn't able to go with a bunch of my officemates to Batangas for the weekend. I was (and still am) obviously sick with no voice (nahawa na ata si Elizabeth, she has a cold and no voice as well) and in no condition to for the outing. I would also be spreading my germs to everyone else with me on the trip. The real downer there is that Tine, Marl (her last day was yesterday *sad*) et al will be there, so it sucks big time not to be there. *sniffle* I have to stay home and rest for now. I think I made a mistake on the day to be absent--should've been on Monday, so that I could stay home and watch the Oscars. Oh dear, the pneumonia thingy. An officemate was telling me that she had the same symptoms I had (fever one day, coughs and cold that next) and her grandma said that we might have that virus thing. And I go, no way! This is just my usual cough (the loud, hacking, TB-like cough--anyone who knows me when I'm sick can attest to that): long duration and awfully painful, but I get over it with a lot of antibiotics and rest. It's nothing serious, I just cough like that. My mind is just so fuzzy when I get a cold, so I wish this cold would go away asap! I hate feeling so foggy lately.
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Thursday, March 20, 2003
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Waah, I went to work today because I had voice already then by the end of the day, wala na, hoarse me again. This is so sad. Will probably volunteer for admin work na talaga or I will never get my voice back soon.
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Wednesday, March 19, 2003
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Tagal pa ng Amazing Race 4. *sigh* Wonder why. AXN's faq's were a bit vague.
Can I just share that one time, while accompanying my dad to a luggage store, I saw an ad for one of the bags and the model was one of the "Wonder Twins"? Syempre, I couldn't tell if it was Derek or Drew. I even had to drag my bro to see it later on. The salesman must've thought I was weird.
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I'm home from work today!
I'm really, really sick and I don't have any voice at all! I would've been absolutely useless if I went to work today--no productivity, no stats, etc. And if I did go to work today, I think they would send me to another floor to do some admin work. Maybe tomorrow. Right now, I just need the rest. I was planning to go half day yesterday because I couldn't take it anymore (I was almost in tears by 12 noon because my head was aching and I was cold--my teammates were telling me to go home already), but martir me, I worked til 7:30 (I was supposed to end by 7:15), just so. And I think that made me absent today. So now, I spent the day at home, either in front of the TV or the PC. I am so out of it. I didn't know Mariah Carey's "Honey" already qualified as a "Classic MTV". Was that song that long ago? Or that Westlife has a new single, "Tonight", wherein Mark has dyed his hair blond! Yech. And "Shrek" was showing today on HBO, I think. Or was it Star Movies? I must say, it was a day of doing nothing because my head still ached slightly, I have my infamous hacking, TB-like cough and no voice. Now what would make my dad think that I went to the office (he called home to ask if I went to work)? I would have been absolutely useless there. I don't know how I got sick. I don't know anyone sick, haven't been in contact with anyone sick. Work-related stress? Heehee. Exag. But who knows?
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Sunday, March 16, 2003
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Still cleaning out. Why do these junk mail thingies come in so fast? They really clog up my e-mail. I think I've deleted enough e-mails already (how sad is that--I'm a sentimental person, I like to keep e-mails sent to me, but I guess I have to [naks] let go some). Now, I do hope I receive the pics.
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I'm currently cleaning out my web-based e-mail, as I am waiting for my friend to e-mail me pics of our despedida for Tin (with a loop) Tin (I digress: it's always full of Junk Mail from wherever! Argh!). Anyway, I'm so sad. I'm going to miss her--she's my lunch date and co-McDonald's junkie. As in, we used to go for Burger McDo meals after work, while waiting for our parents. Waah.
Anyway, we had so much fun in our dinner. I think we must've sat at Cable Car for, oh, four hours or so? Dinaan sa kain at kwento and all sorts of fun stuff. I didn't realize the time because we were just laughing and talking and eating and all that. I picked up so many things like the usage of "chakka" and "esa" (I really don't know the spelling, sorry) as well as serious tips on handling clients and our career paths. Sobrang nakakatanggal ng stress. The week had indeed been long and tiring (when was it not?) and it was just so nice to let go, even for just a while. SC et al. also popped over later on (la lang--but lots of people flocked din to our table as they came from work, etc. So we were one big, happy bunch)... I just want to know why the other tables were tossing us looks of "whatever!" or "ano ba yan". Hello, we were just like them, staying out there and having a good time. I found that strange. Hello, mind your own business--we weren't talking about you. 
These are the times I wish I had a 7650 or any of those Nokia phones with a camera! We were taking so many pics, which led the other tables (again!) to roll their eyes and go, "ano ba yan". As if. We let them be na lang. I wonder how that came about. Whatever! We made our goodbyes quick and painless--no emotional, teary goodbyes, just a lot of hugs, wishes of good luck and the promise to meet again, which I am so sure will happen. After all, she still is a part of their batch, our team and the department. Still, everyday will seem so different already with one of us missing. 
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Monday, March 10, 2003
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"You're so plastic!" my friend exclaimed, jokingly, to me today.
I couldn't help but laugh out loud at that! I'm not plastic--I'm a what-you-see-is-what-you-get kind of person (read: reserved, if I don't know you, sort of kooky if I am super comfortable with you), so that made me super amused. It has to do with this girl I wasn't so fond of before, but now, we're getting to be, well, friends. I'm not plastic ha. Defensive ba? *grin* Ehehe. My super texted all of us that we have a team meeting tomorrow because she has some announcements and that we should have a good night's sleep. That's a most unusual message, but is she kidding?! Can we have a good night's sleep knowing our fate will most probably be judged tomorrow? I cannot wait for the team meeting--just to get it over and done with. It was just an unusual message, so I couldn't help but get affected by it.
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Sunday, March 09, 2003
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I was probably the stylist's nightmare yesterday so early in the morning! My hair was so bagsak, she had to keep on putting Bed Head something to keep it up, not flat. My hair ended up not that flat and sort of kept up with me the whole day. By the way, I was not the first person in when the salon opened up at 7am. I came in at 7:20 and there was a woman there already having herself done up for a wedding too (manicure, pedicure, hair, make up). Her dress (a beautiful silver blue dress) hung alongside mine in the dressing room.
It was a nice and simple wedding, with family and friends. It was actually a nice size--not too many people and everyone able to have a good time. My reading was funny! I was so unaware that I also had to read the Second Reading, so leaving the lectern, I see the commentator motioning me to read the Second Reading! I was caught unaware, so I just spun around to go back to the lectern. My friends said I pulled it off well anyhow. *whew* How can you not get senti over a wedding? My friends and I were getting sentimental over the songs being played during the pictorials and wondering about our own weddings and the niceness of it all. During the reception, we were chatting about the gimmicks we (well, they) were planning to have and making kontrata that we would all be there on each other's wedding day and wondering who was going to be next. I suppose weddings do that to single people: we start to imagine of that hazy, beautiful day in the future (of course, the groom is a vague albeit important character, as we don't have anyone just yet). Anyhow, I knew Tet was very stressed about the wedding, but it came off well. It rained during and after the reception--much to our surprise because it was so warm and sunny earlier in the day. But, as they say, if it rains, it means loads of blessings for the couple, which both of them definitely have--as seen by their family and friends by their side. Wishing Tetty all the best!
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Friday, March 07, 2003
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It's my friend's wedding na tomorrow. I'm excited and nervous at the same time, nervous--I'm reading for the Mass. I haven't done that in quite a while! I've been rehearsing, since the bride sent me the liturgy to read and I think I'm getting barok! I need more practice, I think!  And... I don't know the church. I have never been there before, so I'm afraid I might not go to the correct lectern... or am I just being too paranoid? Yuf, I think I'm just paranoid.
I made a very early morning appointment at the parlor. Nothing grand, though, just to fix Anyhow... I should be sleeping already because I don't want to look sabog tomorrow, but I am still wide awake. It was a kooky day today and everyone was so hyper! Although, I swear, the policies are getting stricter because of the service levels to maintain and all sorts of new company concerns that I feel like it's going to drive us all crazy soon enough! Slave drivers. Grr. Eek, shouldn't stress myself now, it's the start of the (much anticipated) weekend! Can I just share my bro set the pc wallpaper to *scary* Sadako. Eek.
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Wednesday, March 05, 2003
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I am known among my teammates as tigas for making my own breaks--rather, I adjust my breaks when I feel like it, or when I would like to be with my friends and there is a slight difference in our breaks. In fact, some of my teammates have started to emulate me at times. And the funny thing is, it actually works for me. I am not undertime (unlike before) and I am very relaxed. I mean, there is a rigid schedule we have to follow, but the monitors allow adjustments as long as there is a reason. Hehe, I know it's a bit bad on my part, but it's my own way of "rebelling" (hey, I'm too much the good girl already).
Unfortunately, I was told off today for doing that adjustment during my last break. It was partly my fault because it was longer than usual, but I had a long stretch ahead of me and I felt really tired already. I sort of felt bad about it--it was the first time I was reprimanded (well, not really, but I was being monitored pala talaga). So now I learned my lesson. I think I will still adjust my breaks from time to time, but hay, I really have to be conscious about it next time. Although I really think adjusting breaks works for me and according to my teammates, for them as well, it's not really allowed. But I do go overtime without knowing it when I "fix" my breaks. But I think there's a certain service level to maintain that's why we're scheduled as such... oh well. Back to being good (for now, hehe).
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Tuesday, March 04, 2003
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 which stereotype are you? I'm not particularly inspired right now... but why Avril?
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Monday, March 03, 2003
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So. Not. My. Day.
When I got to the office, someone was at "my" work station. So when Tine invited me to sit beside her, I gladly accepted so that it wouldn't be so lonely. But then we realized after one hour, there was a note on the pc I was using stating that no one should log on there! Aargh, after one hour! So I moved and then, it was not fun. Can I just say the day did not get any better? I ended up with a very bad headache the rest of the day. And I think I used up my error quota for the month. How sad is my life? And some of my closest friends in the office may be leaving soon. How sad is that? Wala lang, I'm so unhappy right now. Will try to be happier for tomorrow so that I have good vibes.
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Sunday, March 02, 2003
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I subscribe to Candy's Sweet Reminders and although most of the stuff there don't really relate to me anymore (haha), I always look forward to their quotes at the end of the Sweet Reminder. The latest one, I really like. It goes: "Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for; it is a thing to be achieved." - W.J. Bryant
Nice no? Delayed answers to Friday Five: 1. What is your favorite type of literature to read (magazine, newspaper, novels, nonfiction, poetry, etc.)? I read a lot of books, mostly fiction, and lately, by Jeffrey Archer, Ken Follett and the like. I also read magazines, but now, it's more of Vanity Fair than Cosmo or Preview. 2. What is your favorite novel? I have a lot! My list includes Jeffrey Archer's "As the Crow Flies", Madeleine L'Engle's "Camilla", AE Cannon's "Amazing Gracie", Amy Tan's "Joy Luck Club" and "The Bonesetter's Daughter", Nicholas Sparks' "The Notebook" and "A Walk to Remember" and so on. 3. Do you have a favorite poem? (Share it!) I'm not really into poetry, but I like Christina Rossetti's "Remember." 4. What is one thing you've always wanted to read, or wish you had more time to read? I have a book list in my journal that has a whole lot of books I want to buy/read whenever I see it in Power Books or Page One. It's quite a lot and I want to build my collection. Unfortunately, I can't afford them all (yet--hay, dreaming!). 5. What are you currently reading? Still Katharine Graham's "Personal History". I have been reading it for two months already. It's an inspiring read, although I think I have to look up American history for some of the people and events there.
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