Saturday, November 30, 2002
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Well, the week ended pretty okay naman.
I mean, when you're down, there's nowhere else to go but up, so... things just have to get better, I guess. Not really resolved my issue last Wednesday (I was on the warpath last Thursday), but it is going to be kind of hard to undo what was done. All I know is, I shouldn't let it get to me and move on. Hah. Sana. I was surprised to realize it's going to be December already tomorrow (lately, I have been so out of it--am not aware of dates and always have to double check my phone for the date. Funny idea for someone who couldn't move without her planner just five months earlier *tsk tsk*). The year seemed to have flown by. My pagka-Planning School is re-surfacing again by wanting to evaluate everything. But not now. That would be too much after such a heavy week.
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Wednesday, November 27, 2002
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Asar na asar talaga ako today. Actually, I'm just really cross about something another co-worker did, wherein I was the one who got stuck. As in! So in the end, it seems like it's my fault, when I know, I wasn't wrong--or if it was indeed my fault, I believe it was an honest mistake. I wasn't aware of the situation beforehand (which happened months before I started) and I was just reporting to the client what I knew based on the previous updates. Now it seems like I'm the one who was at fault, that I made the problem even worse. What's bad pa, my name is at stake here. I feel so bad and cross and angry and embarrassed at the same time.
Things like these are the instances where I begin to think if everything is all worth it. Because sometimes it's not at all worth the problems and stress I (we) have to go through! *sigh* Today, I know it wasn't only me. Marlon was telling me how she knew a client was disappointed in how Marlon had handled the client's case. So Marlon wasn't sure what she had to do and I could empathize with her because I am sort of in the same situation. How hard. I'm still cross about the situation wherein I got stuck so my friends told me I should talk to my supervisor and explain what happened and how it seems as if I was placed in a weird situation that can't be changed already. I probably will talk to her tomorrow (before she apporaches me) and... I don't know. I'm just so frustrated right now.
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Monday, November 25, 2002
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Can it only be Tuesday tomorrow...? *sigh* I hate thinking about how long the week is and time does fly faster than I think it does... Wala lang, it's just the effect of a very long, draining and exasperating Monday. I wish Mondays weren't so bad.
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Saturday, November 23, 2002
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Whoohoo!  I finally, finally got my braces off! After six years and nine months, one year and a month of high school, five years of college, two (three, including CAT) graduations and two grad pics, countless 1x1s and 2x2s, they're finally gone!
Shucks, it feels so weird. I had them off yesterday (part of the reason I was absent) and... well, it wasn't as ceremonious as I thought it would be, but I was pretty psyched they finally got off! I have to wear retainers, though. I look and feel weird. Like a part of me is missing--hello, that's six years din. Wow, no more tin grin. No more people (and that's quite a few) telling me, "Alam mo, siguro maganda ka pag wala ka nang braces." Duh, as if di ba? Some habits I got when wearing braces are hard to get over. Oh my gosh, I can finally have bubble gum! I love bubble gum--it's been quite a while since I had that... but I don't know how to make a bubble. Whee. Today, I went out with some people, including Semi Crush! Ack. He asked why I didn't go to the office the day before (ugh, he noticed) and he found out I'm nbsb. I think he has a girlfriend/mu/significant other. Oh well. I think I mentioned earlier I think he knows I think he's cute. Well, people have said (like Tessa  ) that my face is pretty transparent (that, I am so unaware of!). As in, my emotions show through my face. I never knew that--I thought I was sort of poker faced pa naman. So one time, when I had to talk to Semi Crush, I swear, feeling ko I was blushing to the max. Yikes. Oh well. I'll get over him na talaga (now where have I heard that line before?). Semi-crush pa lang naman eh.
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Friday, November 22, 2002
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I didn't go to the office today for a good reason. But really, I need a break. How weird, I've only been logging on for such a short time and it feels so toxic there aready (the Training Manager's words). Got so tired yesterday, felt like I was in the office forever! At least yesterday wasn't so bad, but I really need time away from there. I'm just so so tired right now.
Anyway, I'll be going to the office tomorrow for extra training by my supervisor. Need help always, so I might as well take advantage of that. Yup, I need all the help I can get to survive. Worth it kaya mag-gym? My batchmates have been telling me to apply already (almost all of them have applied already) kase feeling namin papangit ka sa kind of job we have now. Eh I'm afraid that I might get tamad. Then my body might get weird. Will think about this more.  Which Literary Heroine Are You? Just like everyone's favourite singleton, Bridget Jones (from 'Bridget Jones's Diary' & 'Bridget Jones: The Edge Of Reason'), you're the modern girl's heroine. You do stupid things, you've been known to drink to much and you're likely to be an appaling public speaker - but your appeal lies in your 'normalness', the way you take the bad with the good, and the fact that, despite your past behaviour, you're likely to come out of everything smelling of roses, the sexiest man alive on your arm. "Bridget Jones, already a legend!". Moi?
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Thursday, November 21, 2002
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How mean naman di ba? I just got home an hour ago and then I have to be at the office early today (Thursday already!). Shucks, how sad is my life. When I left the office, Marlon and Tricks (my batchmates) were still at it. Lisa Chanda and I left together and I know that she has a government service exam at seven am. Yikes.
I suppose every job has its ups and downs and right now, I'm really in a down down down kind of feeling. Wala lang, I'm just not very into whatever I'm doing. I thought I would be (I thought this was a good niche for me), but now, maybe I'm not so sure. We'll see how it goes. Yes, a lot of Semi Crush instances today, but I'm nodding off already so next time na lang yun.
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Tuesday, November 19, 2002
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My schedule is so weird tomorrow. I'll be in the office until ten in the evening, not counting the pending stuff (hah, like I was in the office until eight tonight). Yikes. How weird. I'm half looking forward to it. Adventure.
Another highlight of the day! *grin* Semi Crush (I need a new nick!) asked me if I was okay today (do I look so kawawa ba? Then again, I was hugging my clear book and loooking morosely at the pc). He was also looking over at my work so I was pretty conscious (I could see him in the periphery). I think I really looked hopeless today (what an impression to make). Anyway, today was much better than yesterday. All I'm hoping is that I'll get better at this. What I hate pa naman is sounding and looking (not to mention feeling) not credible, which is not good. So... looking forward to a long day tomorrow. *sigh*
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Monday, November 18, 2002
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My first day on the floor today (as in training's over).
All I can say is... people can be so, so mean! I swear! I mean, I thought I would enjoy this job because I was in the front line and you know, I'd get to help people. I like to think that I genuinely care for people (naks). Hay after today, I don't even want to think about tomorrow. Maybe I was just a tad too idealistic that people would be so grateful for my help... wala eh. People can get so mean and... just mean. But I guess kase it's their money and all that on the the line, so they have to cling to everything that happens to it (that's Miz Mannerz for you). So tomorrow is another day. I dread hearing about my error record for today and I do ought to be reviewing and fixing my notes right now. Highlight of the day? *mischievous grin* Well, my work station was sort of near Semi-Crush's (hehe) and I had many non verbal encounters with him today. When Semi-Crush (I have to think of a new nick) called my local, his name popped up on the screen and I was like, "Gasp! What would he want?" Hehe, nothing nga eh. Other than that, nothing interesting. What a day, what a day.
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Saturday, November 16, 2002
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Am annoyed about something right now (actually a lot of things), so I blanked out on what I was going to blog about today.
Anyway, got to relax a bit today... watched Kailangan Kita. I don't get why the lead character doesn't wear a bra at all. She wears all these white peasant blouses that are too loose and no bra. To think the character pa finished Economics, wanted to pursue Law and comes from a pretty decent and well-known family. Di bagay ano? Weird. She was supposed to be "sensual", but she didn't come across that way. Oh well. I completely forgot Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets opened already. I'm not that excited for it anymore. The momentum of Harry's lost on me. Besides, I didn't like that book so much. I loved Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban though. *long pause* I'm still unhappy and annoyed about something. Writing usually makes me feel better, but right now I am just so, so cross about something.
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Friday, November 15, 2002
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I missed my blog! As in... Kase naman, the last few days were super hectic, with the wrap up of our training and all that. Today was the Proficiency Exam which I don't really want to think about. And on Monday we're logging on already! Scaryyy. Anyway, everyone told me to stop worrying about that already and rest on the weekend or else I won't be "Miz Mannerz" on Monday for the first log on! Haha!
Honestly, training was fun, even if it was information overload everyday. It helped that we were only five and everyone was... well, as Marlon (girl yan ha, it's a nickname--we all have nicks for each other eh) put it, "Patok yung batch". The previous batch was right, sana training forever, because it's so much fun (Charades! Jeopardy!) and everyone just got to bond. So... here's a nice series of questions or fill-in-the-blanks thing which I got from Jo. Been thinking about it for quite some time din: 15 years ago, I... 1. Was in Grade 2. 2. Became OC when it came to spelling, grammar and punctuation. 3. Appeared in a French magazine. 10 years ago, I... 1. Was in Grade 7 and pretty excited about entering high school (grade school seemed to take forever). 2. Had long enough hair. 3. Was sort of insecure, but had a good set of friends to help cushion the impact of being a teenager. 5 years ago, I... 1. Entered college and met some of the nicest people in the world. 2. Learned how to bowl! 3. Became unsure of what I really wanted to do with my life (as if even up to now, I don't know what to do with my life, di ba?). 2 years ago, I... 1. Was in 4th year college, wondering if I could make it to the 5th year program. 2. Was able to put aside particular biases to work with other people I wouldn't have normally chosen as my groupmates. And it worked. 3. Was sort of sure already of what I wanted to do with my life. A vague idea only. 1 year ago, I... 1. Wondered if I made the right choice in going to 5th year. And wanted to quit at certain points. Although it wasn't serious, it occurred to me. 2. Thought Jerk liked me and vice versa. Whatever. 3. Became a class officer! Hehe. Yesterday, I... 1. Tried to study for today's exam. 2. Learned so much about the intimate details of life from bonding with my batchmates! So many myths have been revealed to me. I feel so... naïve all of a sudden. 3. Got kind of disappointed over something. Today, I... 1. Had the Proficiency Exam. *sigh* 2. Was craving for dessert at Jack's Loft (masarap kaya yung cake?) but couldn't have dessert because we were going to be late for a seminar. 3. Learned how to empathize. Tomorrow, I... 1. Will go out and relax after this stressful week. 2. Have to buy more clear sheets for my clear book. 3. Start fixing my notes and psyching myself up for Monday (okay, I am stressing myself out unnecessarily).
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Tuesday, November 12, 2002
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Missing from blog land because I am trying very hard to be serious and study for my training's daily quiz tomorrow. I actually want to get a perfect score for once! Aggrr. My scores are okay, but iba pag-perfect (naks). Somebody said to the Training Manager that we were more serious now than we have ever been in our lives, even more so than in college. Kinda sorta true. Not fully true, but true enough.
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Sunday, November 10, 2002
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 Which Amelie character are you? brought to you by Quizilla Aw. I super enjoyed this movie, subtitles and all (whoa, IMDb's rating for it is a high 8.8/10, making it top 17 out of 250). It was sweet without being overly saccharine and charming without being too mushy. It was funny watching Amélie shy away from Nino because she was afraid. Interesting also how simple things Amélie did for other people made huge differences for those people. My bro and I are looking for a VCD of "Amélie"... Back to that quiz--although I can't imagine I'm mala-Amélie, I loved her quirky personality.
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Saturday, November 09, 2002
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Went out with some of my friends today to celebrate Loids' birthday. Hay sana we were complete. But it was okay seeing them naman. Lots of kwento about life--like how it's one big adventure on finding who you are, what you want, where you will be and what will really happen to you. Chatted up with Tiz about Jerk since she talked to Jerk's ex just this week (they met for her birthday). Ayun, Jerk is... awful. All my nice ideals about him are banished. *sigh* He's human, I know. I guess Jerk was too good to be true. Well.
Hay. I have a cold now. I must've gotten it from one of my training batch mates. What can I do, we're trapped together in one room the whole day. Grr. I hate having colds. I hope it doesn't turn into cough--now that would be bad. I just noticed today, my legs have lots of bruises! I read somewhere that lefties are somewhat clumsy. I wonder if that's true? Now how could that be? Anyway, I hit my knee again against my dad's conference table and it hurt the whole day today! It was so hard to walk around. I think I move a bit too brash that's why I get these bruises.
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Thursday, November 07, 2002
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Hay naku, everyone is kidding Mandy Moore on her site about two timing Andy Roddick (for Andy Reddish) because of this:
 Even Mandy herself has commented on that. At least she and Andy were good sports about it.
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Wednesday, November 06, 2002
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Please do visit my bro's relatively new blog, Renegade Thoughts. It's his way of inflicting himself on the world (naks).
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Tuesday, November 05, 2002
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What a kooky day today. I swear, I don't know what possessed us today, but we were all extremely makulit. It was a laugh trip the whole day--well, more of the late afternoon. We even got our supervisor in the act (hehe), mainly because he was wondering why we were just laughing and laughing during the last few minutes. It was fun--on the way home, I was wondering what triggered our very high mood this afternoon. Hay. Now I'm too tired (and lazy) to study.
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Monday, November 04, 2002
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New expression picked up today: FO or "Friendship Over". How about that? *adds to vocab*
Awful day! I hate it when it rains, it's so hard to get a ride commuting home, the traffic gets messy and everyone is just in a plain bad mood. These are the days when I wish we could just hope and pray for no class days. Like in school. Plus, I'm still not over the long weekend. It shouldn't been longer. So I was (still am!) quite slow today.  What Eyes Do You Have? brought to you by Quizilla Don't these eyes also remind you of Andy Roddick's? Hehe. A lot of people seem to think that. On some tennis message boards, their code name for him is "Bambi"!
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Saturday, November 02, 2002
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Since it's a long weekend, I'm supposed to be good and try to study for Monday (it's just a quiz, I know, but I was so spaced out last Wednesday, I hope my notes will help me). But I feel lazy, as well as I feel like bashing someone/something and will probably study later tonight. Hehe. My knee pala has four bruises all merging into one big bruise. *ouch*
I was pretty cross last Thursday because I woke up early to catch the via satellite telecast of Studio 23 of The Amazing Race. I know Tessa got up early, too. And what did I (we) see? Myx! How annoying is that? We never knew since when Studio 23 took out their satellite telecast. Grr. So instead of watching what we wanted, we ended up with *ugh* the music channel I don't really like. So much for their tagline "Watch U Want". Hello, they can't even give me Alias in English. How can Studio 23 show S5 via satellite, but not TAR? Too bad. So that pretty bummed me out for the rest of the day. I'll complain to them when I'm in a better mood. What made my day today? Well, not really, but I had fun reading this site that does funny and sarcastic commentaries on TAR.
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