Saturday, March 27, 2004
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Since my bro napped the pc again *hehe*, I've been resigned to going to Internet places to log. So the past few days have been... detoxifying. It's just me, my thoughts and the TV. And I haven't even picked up a pen to write in my journal because my days have been boring. But relaxing. I've started to sleep better and wake up without a frown. I've started wearing my blue watch and dangling earrings again. I've begun to do things without guilt. And it feels good. :)
* * * The problem with public Internet places is that the people around you, the keyboard you're using can get terribly annoying. So, ugh, I'm getting out of here.
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Sunday, March 21, 2004
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Or what I'm going to wear to my friend's wedding. She dropped by with the invite today and it now seems so real. We've just been texting each other about the wedding and then now and it hasn't sunk into me that one of my childhood--if you could call it that--friends is really, truly getting married. Now I have an idea of what color I should be wearing. Hmm, that gives me an idea, I should meet up with her and chat her up about things. I'm going to be a secondary sponsor! How exciting. :)
Or what I'm going to give (am I supposed to?) for my former officemate? The night before that wedding I'll be attending another bridal shower naman for her. It's also going to be a reunion just for the walang malisya girls. :) As in just the girls, which I don't mind and quite looking forward to as well.
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Or what Bob Harris whispered to Charlotte at the end of "Lost in Translation".
I like this though: "The more you know who you are, and what you want, the less you let things upset you."
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Saturday, March 20, 2004
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Finally lined up for 30 minutes at Gonuts today. My teammates and I have been trying to On the way home from Makati today, it was quite early so my dad had the bright idea of lining up for Gonuts. Hah. We got there at about 5:30 and I freaked out at the length of the line (turns out it's not very long at that rate), but my parents were like, just line up. Funny pala talaga when you line up there, everyone is insta-friends because you're all stuck there, just waiting to buy donuts. Anyway, the Gonuts people thought of ways to humor the line with games. Na-pressure ako ha! The girls in front of me, the family behind me and the couple behind the family--kinareer ang games! You have to admire their enthusiam, but then again anyone couldn't help but join in the games. Might as well nga naman. I won one round in name that tune--how could people not know "I Got You Babe"?! Hehe. My mom was surprised I even knew that Cher song--I should know, Beavis and Butthead remade that song with Cher! So there, when we got quite near, the lady behind me started chatting up with me on how much longer the line was from where we started. Hay. Now we have a dozen Gonuts of various flavors, including Ava's recommendation of Pastillas de Leche, but not Anch's fave rave of Peanut Butter--which I have been curious about because I love peanut butter. I do hope the donuts are good, sana hindi lang siya hype. * * * Funny how when I need to buckle down and study for my finals, I start thinking of all sorts of things. I would've thought I would've outgrown my old study habits. But nooo, once I have my notes in front of me, my mind begins to wander. Like when we discussed this section, that was the day we had a major laugh trip with super corny jokes by Empy. Or when was the day we loved our sked? And then I want to start reading the new Vanity Fair. Or re-read any of the books on my bedside (that's a lot). Anything but my notes. *sigh*
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Tuesday, March 16, 2004
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I have to stop eating all the time. My pants are getting quite tight already. Sigh.
Politics is not my game to play. But it seems that life is not fair right now. I used to be very unconcerned, but now I'm bothered. I think I'm not getting what I am due and if everything's beginning to become like that, a lot of rethinking has to be done again. This time, I know I'm so sure already.
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Sunday, March 14, 2004
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I really should be doing something else (like study), but nah... later na lang. :)
Instructions: A. Copy the whole list. B. Highlight the things that are true about you. C. Whatever you don't touch is false. 01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions - sad no? 02. I don't watch much TV these days - I miss "American Idol"! :( 03. I love psychodelic mushrooms - hmm... is this something out of Bridget Jones? 04. I love sleeping 05. I have loads of books 06. I once slept in a bathroom 07. I love playing video games 08. I adore marijuana 09. I watch porn movies 10. I watch them with my father 11. I like sharks 12. I love spiders 13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair 14. I like George Bush 15. I am cool - I'm a real dork 16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year - more dumb, I think! 17. I have a jacuzzi and a Porsche 18. I have a lot to learn 19. I carry my knife everywhere 20. I can be really really smart 21. I've never broken someone's bones 22. I have a secret 23. I hate snow 25. Punk rock rules 26. I hate Bill Gates! 27. I love Chinese food - we-ell, I really like dimsum 28. I would hate to be famous 29. I am so not a morning person 30. I wear glasses 31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses 32. I have potential - yeah! 33. I'm pure Japanese 34. My legs are two different sizes 35. I have a twin 36. I wear a padded bra sometimes 37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing 38. I'm left-handed - Lefties of the world, unite! 39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them 40. I don't like horror movies 41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway 42. People hate me usually 43. I love pop music 44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight - I don't have a choice on this, that's just about the time I get home (or even off) from work. 45. I hate parking fines 46. I know the national anthem of my country by heart 47. I know more than two languages - well technically yes, but I don't think in those languages 48. I can spend too much time on the computer 49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window 50. I live on a ground floor 51. I don't like chocolate 52. I'd like to be more original 53. I've lied - hah! 54. Cocks are my favorite birds 55. I want to conquer the world 56. I wonder what happens when I die 57. I've read all books about Harry Potter 58. I love my dog! 59. I love to exercise 60. I hate chemistry with a passion and math, too! - they hated me back 61. I love to write but I wish I could be as interesting as some people 62. I like changes 63. I hate going to class 64. I am afraid to die 65. I hate dish washing with a passion! 66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly 67. My nails are nine inches long 68. My favorite color is black 69. I like to sleep on the floor 70. I am hopeless at cooking - Home Ec reject at your service 71. I sucked my thumb when I was little 72. I should be doing something else rather than doing this 73. I am online a lot 74. I hate government 75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend - bwahaha! 76. I'm too nice for my own good - unfortunately 77. I love to read, I read as much as I can 78. I don't trust newspapers 79. I like debating 80. I live in a wagon 81. I clean my room once a month - I wish 82. I'm scared of American fast food 83. I have a third eye 84. I love Mozambique 85. I don't trust any religion 86. I used to play with Barbies only because all the other girls were doing it 87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little 88. I like listening to wind chimes - but it has to be wood :) 89. I'm very disorganized 90. My hair is long and straight 91. I earn a lot 92. I don't like spicy food 93. I keep a diary 94. I can't do cartwheels 95. I can be very lazy - ay grabe, I'm laaazy! 96. I'm sarcastic more often than not 97. I think my hair can be annoying 98. I could be sensitive 99. I love being "ab-normal" Friday Five 1. What was the last song you heard? "Shut up" by Black Eyed Peas 2. What were the last two movies you saw? "How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days" via DVD and "Legally Blonde" on cable 3. What were the last three things you purchased? Cocoa Loco from Gloria Jean's, Cherry Coke and lunch yesterday (boxed rice) 4. What four things do you need to do this weekend? Study for my exam on Monday, go to work, buddy up, sleep 5. Who are the last five people you talked to? My dad, mum, brother, Manang and teammate Joanna.
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Thursday, March 11, 2004
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I looove browsing through book stores. I picked up that habit up when I was in college, while waiting for my parents in Shang, I'd hang around National Bookstore and I'd just prowl through the book store, touching books, reading their summaries, flipping through the pages (seeing if they have nice fonts--there are some authors that go with certain fonts) and so on. It's an odd habit and I try to be as inconspicuous as possible; I don't think Natio is a bookworm-friendly place, I suppose that's why they have Power Books.
Anyway, today my teammates brought me to Booktopia. I've always been curious about the place and have even been there once, but I didn't stay long. According to my teammates, they stay there for hours on end just reading and going through books. They pretty much know the people manning the store, so crashing there is usual for them. So that's what we did when we got there. Taking their lead, I set my bag at the table and set to trawling through the book store. Booktopia's not big like Power Books or Fully Booked, but it's cozy and has chairs and bean bags to sit and look through books. You're more or less left on your own, which I like in a book store. It was just the three of us for most of the time there. So many things to look at! They also have these catalogs of the cutest stationery, toys, calendars, journals and so on that can only be found in the US and which most likely can be ordered through them. Not yet now though. Ava showed me this super interesting book--"I Spy". It's for kids, but it's fun to do, trying to look for the "rabbit" was hard ha! I left after about an hour and a half, but my teammates stayed. They also offer services like book search (I don't know what's it's called, but they do find books for you) and reselling of second hand books. Nice place, will definitely go back there (especially since there's a book there that I was eyeing earlier but forgot to buy it). * * * There's something about being with different people that changes your outlook on certain things. I think. Right now, my life plans are once again disturbed. So I don't know what to do again! I feel like I'm starting over again--it was not fun trying to accept that I could move on a few months ago, but now, I don't know. On the bright side, my new teammates have been really, really nice and that's one thing I'm very grateful for. I miss the walang malisya people but I still get to see them and talk to them, but not as often as we used to. :( Life is... weird again right now. * * * I wanted to watch "Lost in Translation" today as I realized it's my only free time for now but it's not showing anymore in any movie theatre. *sigh* I want a normal life.
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When the person you think you're really close to does not tell you big, important news and you hear it from someone else... well, you're bound to react with a blank look, then a forced smile and say, "Yeah, I heard about it already! Isn't it great?" but in reality have no idea what's it all about.
So what do you do when you feel that you're the last or one of the last to know, but you're not exactly sure why. Is it because you were witness and part of the "what-might-have-been" or the "what-was"? How could that be when that person has always treated you like a little sister--that person has seen you grow and is proud of how far you've been. Not really hurt. A bit, fine. But just wondering why. Hay these thoughts at almost 2 a.m. and an exam later today. What is happening to me, I don't know.
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Wednesday, March 10, 2004
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I don't really mind being a "closing girl", but I am so tired already. Amazing how a tough time transition and added work can exhaust anyone. I've been living on coffee, Choc Nut and food. But I want more sleep, more day time, more normal living which I haven't had in ages.
Although can I just share, nine days into being in a new team is pretty okay so far. My new teammates are some of the nicest people at work... I do miss the walang malisya people, but we're always still there for each other. :) Anyway, yuf, my new team's doing fine so far. I'm quite relieved about that. We're all the same age at work and we're going through training together so we've come together immediately because of that.
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Tuesday, March 02, 2004
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It really is like I'm back in school with our training! Not only because of the classes everyday (and trust me, it's hard having to work after), but with the attitudes we carry over. Like today, during our break, it was spent photocopying the slides used--which reminded me of photocopying in the Libe before. We were kidding each other how much we had to pay for that. It is a thick bunch and I have no idea how I'm going to go through it for our class again tomorrow in about 11 hours or so. Good luck to us, I cannot fathom how I'm going to be able to study with our late, late schedule. We'll see how we'll pull through: the first day was considered information overload already--wonder how we'll fare in the more intensive sessions. They say the course is easy, I guess we're just overwhelmed at the rate we're going, plus all the other changes going on around us. Goodness. It's pretty much an adjustment period again at work. I hate abrupt changes, but I'm more or less getting used to it (don't really have a choice).
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Monday, March 01, 2004
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My body clock is out of whack again so here I am blogging. I'm sleepy but not sleepy enough to go to bed (!). It's March already! Summer's near (or here)! It's so warm already--the cold during February abruptly disappeared. I feel like I'll be going to summer school this year: we have an added competence training starting tomorrow (today) before work and it's going to stretch into the summer. I'm sort of nervous about it and I'm hoping it won't be too bad. Been trying to get pointers from Ais. Actually, I'm not nervous about the training itself, but more of the bigger responsibility. At first, I didn't think it was such a big deal to be given advanced training, but everyone has been teasing me in a good way about it. The idea is exciting, but honestly the new tasks later on scare me (new tasks have bigger impact on the company)! I think I must be the most reluctant person who's ever going into the training. Yikes. But truly. I'm glad the higher ups trust me... so I'll make the most of it for that.
What am I saying already... I'm writing this half-asleep already. *yawn* Long day ahead. :)
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