Tuesday, September 30, 2003
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I feel so bad.
A member of the beloved Fab Team gone. :( It was Bo's last day today as his contract was not renewed. Sobrang sad! The girls of the Fab Team were all touched and crying over the open letter Bo posted in our team's folder. Promise, sobrang feel bad, even our super was not in good shape earlier this evening. I think they all went out to drink after work tonight. It was sad when Marl and Tin left but only because they didn't really want to stay. I think Bo wanted to stay and the bonding of our team was really different that's why it's so nice to stay and just be there, even if the work is hard. I guess what was also so bad was that a lot of people were saying that Bo would be regularized... I think anyone would get his/her hopes up, right? I would. We did. So much for hearsay. *sigh* I'm super going to miss Bo. We're always early (he more than me), we always look for pcs together, have lunch dates (more like pig outs) on Wednesdays and Sundays (McDo days!) with Lizzie and whoever can join us. *sniff, sniff* I'm going to miss him borrowing my all-access ID and asking me to file cases and increases because of my profile. This is so sad. Another friend leaving. :( Anyway, there's hope pa naman daw to reunite the team again soon, I hope. *crosses fingers*
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Thursday, September 25, 2003
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Am in an Internet cafe right now--the Internet connection is fast (yay), but my head is aching because of the loud, loud music ("You are Not Alone" by MJ, indeed!), the noise of those playing computer games and smoke from their cigarettes. I will not last here...
On a side note, why does the Blogger editing page look different on a big screen pc? Or for that matter, my blog's layout looks so puny on a big screen pc. Oh well. Just amazed at the difference... hey, that reminds me, I think it's been a year since I started this online journal. Wow. Time flies so fast.
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Tuesday, September 16, 2003
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There's an article in the papers today about the stampede at the concert last Saturday. Scary kaya nun. We saw some girls crying because they were caught in the mess. That was one of the reasons that prompted us to leave.
Kuya will not let up on teasing me. He keeps on telling me, "Lagot ka sa akin", which I absolutely take seriously. I think he plans to put some notes about my current infatuation in my account, which is quite accessible to anyone. *hmph* I will have to check and delete that everyday. I'm truly worried for one of my friends who's not sure if she's pregnant. It all started when everyone was telling her she was getting fat and that got a lot of people thinking. I'm glad, though, she's taking it all in stride and keeping a healthy and positive disposition so far. I have a feeling the boyfriend of one of my officemates is the, uh, sworn enemy of my barkada. Interesting. They've been together for more than five years already. Wonder if she knows what boyfriend did to us almost four years ago? Not that I want to confront him about that--we just didn't acknowledge each other's existence throughout college after the issue was "resolved." Anyway, he was at the party. I'm sort of glad I wasn't there. I mean, I'm not sure how I would react if she would introduce me to him. She always mentions that boyfriend is in the area and one time told Ais and me if we wanted to meet him he was just around, etc. Anyway, we shall cross that bridge when we get there. For now, should I rehearse being nonchalant about everything?
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Sunday, September 14, 2003
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Full weekend
It was a fun one, even if I missed the anti burnout party. I don't think I missed so much though. Barely survived the F2 concert--let's just say intuition won over anything else once it started to rain (hard), the crowd going in got out of control and the security was getting to be sort of helpless. My friends and I just went out, never mind if they lined up for six hours earlier to get in. Safety was the main concern already. Logistics was horrible. The organizers may say it was a success through the numbers the concert generated, but ugh. I swear, there are so many awful stories yet to be told about that concert (just today, Bo got a call from a client requesting for a refund for her ticket to the concert because she wasn't able to use it--my guess is she was one of the many with expensive tickets who weren't able to get in. Bo advised her to call the merchant). At least my friends and I were safe (although soaked). But I think we got a better deal out at the back because we got a close enough (as in close enough) glimpse of Barbie, Ken and Vaness. And that their vans passed right by us on our way out--which we took as a sign to go back, but stay out of the crowd's way. All I can say is, we are such fan girls of Ken. :) He's a cutie.
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Friday, September 12, 2003
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I'm anti-social and it's by choice
We have another One reason as well I'm not going: Kuya is dangerous! He found out about this crush of mine on this someone and Kuya is not letting up on teasing me. I don't mind his knowing but it's a bit freaky what if he's drunk tonight and it slips to that someone? Argh. I don't think I need the unnecessary stress. It was okay when the girls knew, but with Kuya finding out, it's a bit scary already. I realize I sound young and insecure here... it's just that I feel the culture at work is like school pa rin with all the bukingan about crushes and stuff. It's interesting, in it's own way, I guess. I found the correct "Colourblind" already ("color" with a "u"). It's by Darius. :) Heard it on the new Penshoppe ad. It's unfortunately taking me quite a long time to download (like four hours? Hello? No). It's a super cute song, I'm so aliw everytime I hear it. I'm super excited once it's done already. And yes, I am watching the F2 concert tomorrow with my friends! We got the Php 515 tickets. Hello, I need a break. I miss my friends, I worked for seven days straight the past week, I'm super exhausted. I am allowing myself to let loose tomorrow night.
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Wednesday, September 10, 2003
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Because I'm a dolphin
I don't have issues with my team. I don't have much issues with anything except for my simple request this week. I don't have too much trouble with anything except for a few rules I don't like. But as I am a dolphin, I accept these things because our personality is the type that have difficulty saying no. We have to assert ourselves at the proper times. Which, of course, is hard to do for the nice and understanding (submissive?) dolphins. Goodness, I am taking my being dolphin a bit too far. I'm trying to download this song I heard at McDonald's today from Kazaa... but I think it's the wrong song. I actually asked my teammate who was with me what the title of that song was and he said "Colorblind." So I assumed that was it, but when I started downloading "Colorblind" by Counting Crows, I began to realize, yep, it's the wrong song. But I don't mind--it's that haunting (for me) song from Cruel Intentions. So okay lang I like that song as well, but I still wonder what was that song I heard in McDo. It's definitely not "Colorblind." I also don't remember anymore how it goes! Because I'm feeling senti, my song list on Kazaa almost every night goes like this: 1. Ako'y Sa 'Yo by First Circle 2. You First Believed by Hoku 3. You Don't Know Me by Jann Arden 4. Why by Avril Lavigne 5. Waiting in Vain by Annie Lennox Feeling senti talaga.
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Tuesday, September 09, 2003
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How could a day that started out quite nicely (Andy won) end so terribly?
Well, not exactly terrible, but I am unhappy for a lot of reasons. It has to do with work (what else is new?) and *frown* I'm just tired, frustrated, irritated and all that. *sigh* I've been bringing up my issues to the proper authorities, but it seems nothing is going to come out of it. Phooey. So I'm pretty upset about it and I'm just really hoping for the best. Why does everything have to be so difficult for me at work when it comes to these things? Parang ako yung pinahihirapan talaga. I don't ask for much favors, just this once, and yet it's so, so hard! :( Almost mowed down this someone, which was (mildly) embarrassing on my part. Too flustered to even apologize. Red as a macopa again. Aargh. Something's wrong with the Fab Team. Wonder why. I can sort of feel the tension. But then again, I stay out of the mess, just to be the neutral mediator I am seen to be. We-ell, the day sort of redeemed itself after I checked my e-mail earlier. My long lost friend e-mailed me she's back in Manila after almost six months in the US. I do hope our batch gets to meet up one day soon! Eek, I'm excited already!
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Monday, September 08, 2003
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 I'm so happy Andy Roddick won the US Open! Didn't watch because (1) it was early in the morning! After a long night at work, wala, I slept through it and woke up to Tessa texting me that Andy was winning! And (2), I might jinx him! Haha, feeling close! Last year kase, I followed the US Open (and I am a non-tennis person, when you think about it. I would also wake up early for that!) and Andy lost. This year, I was totally out of what was happening at the USO, save for Tessa texting me if Andy made it to the finals, etc. Naks, he won! :) Sad I missed the match, but I hope I can get to catch the replays. :) And I want to see Mandy! She was there daw and there are pics of him and Mandy hugging when he won. *sigh*
Goodness, I want to go back to sleep, but I have to get ready na for work. :(
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Thursday, September 04, 2003
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Because I'm so bummed with work and my (silly) beauty issues, nagpaka-mall ako today just to feel normal. I also met up with Amity for lunch after ten months of not seeing her! Goodness, imagine, ten months of catching up (her trip to Rome, work, school, Vigan days, among others). It was fun, I almost felt normal again.
I'm really annoyed about work right now--I'm actually living out one thing I never wished to happen at work, but I am keeping an open mind with all the added perks, bonuses, benefits na lang I'm getting because of the freaking seven days ahead. I keep psyching myself that it won't be as horrible as I think it might be. *sigh* Could anything be more awful? Should I have bargained for an earlier schedule (but then again, no bonus)? It's so sad pa because none of my teammates will be with me for one evening. Lonely night. I'm just wondering if this is all worth it. *sigh*
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Wednesday, September 03, 2003
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So not my day... or life.
I have freaking beauty issues! Me! At my age (not that I'm super old) but you know... I passed the stage of being insecure quite a long time ago (like high school and college) and then I was pretty content with how I looked already, flaws and all. Now, I have beauty issues and it bothers the heck out of me! All of a sudden I'm so insecure?! All of a sudden I'm wishing to be like this or that? *frustrated* Aargh! And I have a bad feeling it will be a seven day work week next week. I hate it when they make up the rules as they go along. I am realizing the futility of a lot of things (my life, mostly) right now. This is not fun.
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