Sunday, July 27, 2003
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Amidst the political turmoil, it was business as usual for us. Yep, we had to go to work, but some supers were texting their teams to bring extra clothes and toiletries. Others were asked to stay on also, if needed. My super bought groceries (mostly instant noodles and stuff) for us, just in case. My teammates from the south brought change of clothes as well.
There wasn't much to do, which I really appreciated. Days like today rarely happen and it's an unexpected bonus. The scary part lang was that some newscasters would say "Eastwood" instead of "Oakwood" or that there were rumors Eastwood was the next target. Syempre, panic kami! Goodness. Good thing that didn't happen. I would not like to be stranded at the office. We were just hanging around and oversharing (eek--let's just say I know more than I need to know about my teammates) and trying to watch TV in the Training Room, but we only got a fuzzy reception of Studio 23 and Channel 4 or was that 9? I really like days like this (not the coup stuff--more of the atmosphere at work). It makes me enjoy working on weekends. :)  Can I just share, I want a Cut-and-Style Barbie? Her hair is so silky and long, unlike the coarse hair on my Valentine's Day Barbie or My First Barbie. Then you can buy the gel to re-grow the hair of Barbie to cut and style again! I want! I've always wanted to cut my Barbie's hair into this layered cut and put bangs. I tried to
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Friday, July 25, 2003
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Since I can't go to the MG overnight festival with my friends, I will rant about work. No, scratch that. I won't rant na lang. Leave work at work. So there. It's just that my team is so strict now with our absences. There's a charge per absence, error and day that it's not regularized. As in. I have a feeling that by the end of the month, I will be transferring (big) funds to whoever is collecting. I am so sloppy with my work lately. So. Not. Good.
Okay, stop. Why can't I bring myself to buy books?! I still have the list of books I ought to buy on a Post-It in my planner. I suppose I never realized how expensive it is to buy the books I like. :( Anyway, I was choosing between the Shopaholic series and a Meg Cabot book, then I spied Judy Blume's "Summer Sisters" (have been curious about that). Hay, I ended up buying nothing from the bookstore. Aargh.
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Random stuff I find online
Goodness, I am quite the nocturnal one lately. This week, I've been up till the wee hours because... I'm just quite up and about. It's the awful kind of tired: your body so exhausted and wants to rest, but your mind's still alert and won't let your body sleep. Ugh. I think I missed an intriguing team night out the other day. Only two teammates were missing, one of them was me. Hmmm. I was excused, though kase mabait daw ako. The reason "kase girl siya" doesn't work anymore! Hehe. Discrimination daw e. Found an interview of Mandy Moore with special mention of Andy. Cute stuff by Jordi Labanda. Saw the notebooks at Fully Booked and Sketch Books (expensive!). I like his work more, though. Super duper cute pics of dogs at the Central Park PAWS site. I don't remember how I got to that site, but I'm "aww"-ing right now. I even found the English translation of "Ni Yao De Ai" from PEx! Okay naman siya. :)
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Tuesday, July 22, 2003
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 Which [Charlie's Angels] characters are you? Alex? Not bad. :)
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Saturday, July 19, 2003
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Lightning will strike
Well, Tessa texted that if anyone of us did fall in love, we would just have to text that and everyone would get the idea. Lightning will strike. It was a most interesting conversation about love and relationships. I don't think I've really thought about things like that lately. For example, that question Gwennie likes to ask me: would you go for the one you love or the one who loves you? And I always tell Gwennie, can't the one I love be the one who loves me too? We always seem to give up on that particular argument of ours because I keep on insisting that and she insists otherwise. Hehe. Anyway, Tessa, Ivy, Angel and I were talking about relationships and generally how nice it would be to have someone who feels exactly the same way we do about him. How nice life may be knowing that there's someone out there who believes in you and will be there for you, who understands and appreciates your quirks and who you are (and vice versa). I'm appreciating being single, but I do wonder what's it like to be in a relationship. Do you feel that he would be the "one" (my officemates would say otherwise--they were talking about it the other night)? Can years in a relationship breed familiarity and lose passion (a friend will disagree, they've been on for four years and it's so fast daw)? How long will it last (expiry date issue!)? Hehe, silly questions, but for an nbsb, it's interesting to dissect these things and the intricacies of a relationship. I mean, it's trying to draw out the perfect relationship from the experiences of others, but I'm sure once it's out there for real already, it's going to be different and totally unexpected from what's been conjured in our minds. Anyway, I'm not nagmamadali or anything. Just wondering. I mean, who knows when lightning will strike? :) Continuously playing on Kazaa: "Ni Yao De Ai" by Penny Dai Pei Ni (as per play list). According to Myx, it's translated to "The Love You Want". It's the closing song of Meteor Garden. I like the song, it's just that I don't understand the lyrics. I feel odd about that.
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Thursday, July 17, 2003
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As red as a tomato (actually, the term used was macopa, but I don't know how red a macopa is)!
My good friends have always told me that my face is very transparent. My real feelings are projected through my face, something I'm not very conscious of. They've also told me that I blush easily and uncontrollably whenever I am put on the spot. Tonight was no exception. It was a horrible day and I was so noisy because I was very irate myself. Out of the blue, one of my teammates asked me if I had a significant other and another teammate who knew me from way before was the one answering his queries. Basta, C was interrogating me about my high school and I asked him his na rin... I did find out a lot of things like this I was like, ah okay, sige, end of discussion. Then C wandered over and asked, "Bakit? Type mo ba?" To which I said, nope, he's just a friend. But C gave me this look and then started teasing me and asking if Jerk and I ever had a relationship. Goodness, I was blushing to the roots of my hair and my hands were so cold! Of course not, no relationship ever but I was affected--and I know that I'm over Jerk. Truly. I haven't seen the guy in ages and I was just curious if C knew him. Syempre my other teammates were curious about the racket we were making to which I heard someone say I looked like a macopa because I was blushing. If I was still so infatuated with Jerk as I was before, it would have been a kilig moment, learning that he's a smart kid who was accelerated from Grade 6 to high school, honors caliber (dean's list, semi-honors section, double degree) in college. Finding out Jerk was even the barkada of my friend's kuya and that she knew his ex (before Gwennie's best friend was the ex) would have been a big thing. Small world, really. But right now, I'm not obsessed anymore. I'm tired with the overanalysis of all his messages and whatever happened then and all the "what ifs". It will probably make for a good story which I promised C tomorrow (tonight!). I used to think the story of Jerk and me is far from ended, that there still is some hope for a happy ending (us?), but I suppose I'll just end it as it is: nothing happened and it's been looong over, I was just too pathetic to realize that.
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Tuesday, July 15, 2003
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Goodness, so this is how life feels once you're late at work. Interesting and waaay amusing. I swear. Everyday is a kulit day (night?). Even with all that, I'm so sleepy leaving the office. I'm tired tired tired.
I got this from FeMail: "Anything I've ever done that ultimately was worthwhile initially scared me to death." - Betty Bender And then another quote from the website itself: "If you don't risk anything, you risk even more." - Erica Jong Wala lang, interesting thoughts to chew on. Heee. It's interesting seeing/hearing people's love lives blossoming around me. Think I am an accomplice to an interesting affair. Exciting. :)
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Sunday, July 13, 2003
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When I need to unwind, I have to blog.
New chocolate dessert discovery: Burgoo's Fudge Brownie a la Mode, made the way I like brownie a la mode. It's really warm with lots of vanilla ice cream. Yummy. May be even better than Jumbo Jap's because of the size, lots of chocolate sauce and the brownie itself was so nice. *sigh* Chocolate heaven. Unfortunately, I was too full to finish it. :( And I like the way Seattle's Best in Eastwood makes their White Chocolate Mocha. I'm not really sure if it's just me, but some SBC outlets don't make the White Chocolate Mocha in a certain way. I like the timpla in the old Greenbelt branch and the one in Eastwood, but I don't like it so much in Megamall or Harrison Plaza. Maybe it's me, but I find the one in Eastwood and Greenbelt better. At least the one that's accessible to me makes White Chocolate Mocha the way I like it. It feels so nice to be at home already and just about to crawl into bed. I just feel pretty content right now. (I'm sure I'll be angsty again soon, so I'm savoring this feeling.) And a belated Friday Five: 1. Do you remember your first best friend? Who was it? Yup, my neighbor Cher. :) 2. Are you still in touch with this person? Occasionally. We text each other sometimes and I see her at Mass sometimes. 3. Do you have a current close friend? I have a lot of close friends. :) And I'm pretty grateful for having them. 4. How did you become friends with this person? They're mostly my friends from college. 5. Is there a friend from your past that you wish you were still in contact with? Why? Probably my busmates, we've never really pushed through with our long overdue gimmick. I swear, we must've been planning it since we were in grade school. And some friends from two summers ago, from an internship. My good friend there hasn't been texting me since then. :( Oh and these two friends from my high school--we were a trio, but each of us were not part of the same circle of friends. It was a refreshing friendship. I'm glad, though, that earlier this year, my long lost friends since grade school and I were reunited. I would've listed them first, but we were able to get together after sooo long (the three of us? After about five, six or so years?). That was pretty nice. :)
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Friday, July 11, 2003
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I didn't go to the Anti-Burnout Party tonight. I just felt really lazy knowing I have work tomorrow. I'm just curious, though, if our very serious big boss went. The theme is "Funky Shirt" which seems to be interesting--wonder what people will come up with? A suggestion before was to have a "Pajama Party". Hehe, quite interesting as well.
Hmm, I bet Jan will ask me again tomorrow about my non-appearance. She's already making sure that I will go to her birthday gimmick, since I've been absent from so many (team) gimmicks. Actually, most of those gimmicks are impromtu gimmicks, right after work to unwind and all that. Still, being the (still anti-social) me, I just want to go straight home and rest. Aargh, working for the third Saturday in a row. I really wish my schedule will normalize already! Talked to the schedule-maker and he said it was just adjusted for this week (I suppose the past two weeks have been the transition weeks). Trying to psych myself up for this and trying to remember where Liz buys her Coke (vendo downstairs?). I think I will need the caffeine for a looong night tomorrow.
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Thursday, July 10, 2003
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Today, I made it a retreat of sorts--that is, if you call malling alone a retreat. I just wanted to feel normal and that I had a life. With the new quarter and new schedules, I've been feeling, well, that I've had no life other than work. My days off have been constantly changing and there are times when I just want to stay home and sleep. But today, I decided to just get out of the house for once, hang around, shop (especially since we just got the surprise quarterly bonus!) and think (since I was alone anyway).
I realized that I haven't really forgiven myself for a lot of things. It sounds weird to think of something like that while walking around Megamall and Shangri-la, but I've was mulling over aspects of my life that have moved on and others that haven't. Since I graduated, a lot of parts of my past (this sounds so dramatic!) have resurfaced, but I've reconciled with all these old things. Because I haven't forgiven myself for certain things, I've noticed that I still deprive myself of things I ought not to feel guilty of. I make it seem like a punishment. Why is it so hard to forgive myself? People can hurt me, but it's okay. But forgiving myself is so hard. :( How did I know that I haven't forgiven myself? You know that trite question that if you were to live your life over again, what would you change? And people always say that they won't change a thing because it's what made them who they are blah blah blah? Me, I always think, yes I will change so many things so I won't feel so sorry for myself. What a sad way of looking at life, I know. I've been wallowing in this for quite a while and I know I should stop this pathetic, self-pitying state. I'm not living up to my favorite quote about letting go. One day. Soon. Right now, I'm trying the best that I can to get over things and move on. I can't be like this forever, can I? My mom has this box of prayer cards--it's a small wooden box from Papemelroti containing 31 Scripture passages. Everyday, I pick one, sort of like my prayer/thought for the day (I need one to get through the work day!). The card I picked today was... well, it made me realize I can do anything and I can move on and forgive and make anything happen--as long as I have my faith with me, something I may have taken for granted. It read: "For nothing is impossible with God. (Luke 1:37)" *exhale*
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Thursday, July 03, 2003
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They think of you as a friend...try to be more flirty with him, he might change his mind! goodluck!
take this quiz and find out why you dont have a boyfriend brought to you by Quizilla Nyaahhh... old story. I'll live as a friend for now. Hehe.  Not a bad day off, I was able to recharge. Chatted up with Tessa, finished "Drama Queen" by Abi Aquino which I borrowed yesterday and generally just surfed the Net. It's been a so-so week, mainly because I have a day off every other two days. Yup, the perks of a transition week.
I found "Drama Queen" cute and light, a bit kilig, but sort of forgettable. It came out like a Sweet Dreams-ish novel, but more with a Cosmo aura. I was a bit cynical about the lead character being the way she was and living the fabulous life as a (struggling) artist. Liz was telling me to consider family background and other external factors... well, I thought it was a too early for her to lead such a fabulous life. And how. Still it was an enjoyable read.
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