Saturday, March 26, 2005
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I'm angsty daw. Haha, I guess sometimes it shows that I have a lot of issues. Like I didn't go with my family to the province for Holy Week because I have issues in going there, so I'm all alone here at home. It's been a quiet weekend so far. I've been looking for my resume binder--I'm quite not sure how to make a functional resume. Since I wasn't able to find it (yet), I cleaned out some stuff in my room, which is still messy. Goodness, I wonder when will I ever clean it out. I still have Christmas gifts for my friends as we haven't seen each other yet for that! Oh shucks I have to punch out holes for our new handouts for our training binder. Tedious since we don't have a three-hole puncher.  This is a pic my friend Tessa sent me through e-mail. I actually saw this in the newspaper a few weeks ago and was looking for a pic of this online. I suppose Tessa knew that this was a photo op too good to pass up to share with me as we hardly see any pictures of them together. Ahaha! As she put it, "our boys"--we Okay, very ditzy post for Holy Week, but I did have a serious post about some ideas for what my friends and I used to do and I'm so excited about this. I'm still mulling over the details though. 
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Sunday, March 20, 2005
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I am looking forward to the Holy Week holidays mainly because people are nicer, gentler and all raring to start summer. I miss my friends! I hardly see them and it's hard to schedule get togethers. I want to read "The Boy Next Door" by Meg Cabot--no copy available in Powerbooks yet. Why why why didn't I buy it when I saw it before? I have a new white bag and pretty phone charm which I will use as a bag charm from my dad. The bag and charm are so, so girly, but I love it and I can't wait to use it! I fear drowning. I hear the sound of glass breaking, I think it's our neighbor's. I care too much I stress myself. I smile by baring my teeth (!). Hehe, no not really. I wonder if all the wrong decisions I've made in my life will eventually be all worth it. I love days off and vacations. :) I think I should go to the gym or have some form of physical activity. I'm getting unhealthy. I feel unhealthy. I always watch TV, read or surf the Internet when I don't want to think. I am not organized. I sing when I'm driving especially when it's a really good song and I'm alone. Ooh. Think Kitchie's "Wag na Wag Mong Sasabihin" or the Coke commercial song. It's cathartic. Other than that, I'm not a singer. I wish I could get a different function if I can't move on. I keep old receipts in my wallet, it's practically bursting! My wallet is full of my coffee break receipts which remind me of how much I've been spending on coffee... but it also stands for going out of the office and having fun with my friends. I can do what I want already, but I think I'm not ready yet. I can't be mean if I wanted to. I write bits and pieces throughout the day, but I don't post it. Sometimes it's not relevant anymore, I guess. I won a Grade 3 version of "Million Dollar Chance of a Lifetime" for the word "apartheid". Imagine that. Grade 3. I didn't know what it stood for! I lost my wallet in Grade 1 and first year college. In Grade 1, my wallet had 10 pesos, in college, it was my allowance--so much more. I smell...something cooking, but I can't identify it. I confuse myself a lot when faced with big problems and decisions. I need a haircut or hair treatment.
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Saturday, March 19, 2005
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Aaah. Weekend. I don't know how I would live without days off. Sigh. It's been a so-so week, with one VL (Monday) and one SL (Thursday) and no jeans Friday! Oh, and Crissy and I started our new training. Interesting. For me, the training isn't that much of a big deal, I just see it as a course to beef up our knowledge which I am terribly grateful for (the training was one reason why I took up my former super on this offer. After one year, I think I'm kind of rusty). People have been teasing us in a good way and I'm somewhat embarrassed about it! I'm not very used to the attention! Hee. Can I just share Monday was so worth staying at home because Andy Roddick was on Jay Leno in ETC!!! Ahahaha! I heart Andy! Okay, I actually don't know when this episode was shown, but I think--I may be mistaken--it's recent. I mean, you never know with ETC sometimes. Robin Williams was promoting "Robots" so it seems pretty new. He's single! Can I just gush?! I know, I sound like a teenybopper, but I can't help it, he's so, so cute. Fan girl mode over. :) Well, not yet. My friend April lent me Win A Date with Tad Hamilton! It's a very cute story, although I think some scenes were off--the transitions didn't seem very seamless and I thought some scenes were unnecessary. Some details were also unclear... but it was still a sweet movie! I love love love the six smiles. If someone noticed that about a person, that's just so adorable. Yun lang. I think I sound
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Sunday, March 13, 2005
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Help. I am on a book buying spree. Well not really. Considering I hardly buy books, especially when I was studying. It would only be if my dad would graciously offer to buy me a book I was seriously drooling for with my eyes. He still offers, but it's a bit nakakahiya kase it's my luho. If he sees pa my list of books to buy, oh no! Although, he offered to buy me Paolo Coehlo books (and the books he thinks are not very high on my "books to buy list"). Aww. Anyway because Crissy said I should bring a book, I bought "Every Boy's Got One" by Meg Cabot on a whim. As in, without even flipping through the book or thinking how slightly pricey it was--good thing when the cashier swiped it, it turned out much much cheaper. When I opened it (I hate hate hate how Natio and even Powerbooks wraps their books so tightly and have the stickiest gum stickers. It's so hard to remove and it ruins the book), I saw the story was told in e-mail exchanges, journal entries and the like--which at first didn't appeal to me. But since I had nothing else to do in Starbucks, I started reading and I got so into the story, it's like being privy to other people's lives through their personal correspondence and diary entries (much like a blog). After finishing it in less than two days, I went out and bought "Boy meets Girl", which I finished in one afternoon. Kilig. But I had to control myself from buying "The Second Summer of the Travelling Pants"--is that the title? The second book, as well as "The Third Summer" by Ann Brashares. I cried over the first book. Plus, I'm looking out for "The Boy Next Door" by Meg Cabot and "Citizen Girl". Yes, mostly light and fluffy stuff because I need books to read which keep my mind off other things *grr*. Oh, another one is "Eats, Shoots and Leaves", just for the oc in me. Books are my only indulgence (aside from coffee, I guess--but only if I'm feeling bad and sleepy) so I allow myself not to worry about it. I mean, I remember when I would spend for fashion magazines before! My gosh, it made me feel really bad. I don't know why, so I just limited myself to a once-a-year fashion mag purchase. As for books... Well, I guess I shouldn't punish myself for it. I mean, these are books, I like to read, they keep me occupied and happy. I don't know, it's just different for me and books. But help. So many books to buy and these are not in my budget (yet)! :) * * * Watched Million Dollar Baby with the girls yesterday. I would've cried buckets if Pats didn't point out Crissy really crying. I never knew she was a soft touch! I did get teary eyed and sentimental, but haay, I couldn't stand the boxing matches. Gaah. * * * I think they're going to open Gonuts in Eastwood! Aaaahh!!! I hope I can get my Peanut Butter donut fix soon! I miss it sooo badly. I had an Amazing Glaze fix earlier this week, but I want my Peanut Butter!
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Saturday, March 12, 2005
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I have so made up my mind already. After today and possibly, after this month, I know what I plan to do. Fudge, it's scary, but I'm beyond caring already. I think I have sacrificed too much already. I'm so tired and frustrated and unhappy and confused. Yun lang. Funny how small instances affect you in such a big way.
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Thursday, March 10, 2005
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After hanging out in the Greenhills office today, I have a new goal to make my life at work bearable: I want to dress better! Seriously! They all look great (or maybe because they have to face the client? Whatever the reason, still was in pure envy). You see, my clothes are oh-so-boring. Most of my clothes are from my college days when we were required to wear corporate attire to class. And me, being really lazy to think of fun stuff to wear just bought a lot of plain button down shirts and a lot of dark pants. Not much to look at but it gets the job done. It's also relatively easy to commute in (especially if you have to take a lot of jeepney/tricycle rides to get to the office and a lot of long walks under the sun... or rain for that matter!), forgettable, mix-and-match-able, not very crumple-able but yes, boring. It's practical and sensible, but it's not lively or interesting. *yawn* That frustrates me. I'd love to look pretty even if I am in a bad mood or if I just don't want to go to work but I have to. It makes a lot of difference, looking great even when you don't because in the end you do feel much better! I have never really been clothes conscious before (odd for a girl who grew up on a steady diet of fashion magazines since she was 13 years old), but now I truly realize the significance of clothes and the image it projects. I now understand the "fashion before comfort" thing, the whole obsessing over what to wear. I was never a girly-girl, but now with nothing so much to look forward to (at the moment anyway), I'd love to indulge in clothes and shoes and stuff. Haha, hope this will be okay. I might end up being a fashion emergency--something I so want to avoid!
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Random Stuff... This is super cute! :) I have a version of the "Sunny Day" pic--I also have a pic taken there in Greenhills with the trademark peace sign. :) Hahaha! Anyway. My friends and I are TV addicts lately, with The Amazing Race 7 and AI4. That is the only indication I have any other sign of life other than work. Ugh! :( I feel really boring and bored lately. Well. Isn't it odd to have so many people believe in you and not believe in yourself? There's something so wrong about that. :( Thanks to a heads up from Crissy, I went to National today to buy a book (now I have something to read). Both of us are undergoing training at the office in Greenhills, but we're not scheduled to go together which is a major bummer! That means lunch alone, which she had today and which I may have tomorrow (unless I can get anyone to have lunch with me in Greenhills). So she said I ought to bring a book to keep myself busy. Sigh. Eating alone. It's okay lang to eat alone in the office pantry because there's a TV there and everyone knows it's hard to eat together, schedule wise. When I had my internships, there was always a co-intern to eat with. Now, no one. April mentioned that when she had her training in Makati she didn't eat, while Patty said she ate alone in the canteen. While in National, I flipped through a book on etiquette and the page I opened to was "Dining Alone"--how appropriate. It said that having a book or magazine while eating is acceptable (the only person you can offend is yourself anyway) and once you get over being alone (and all the issues that go with it like people thinking how lonely you are or whatever), it's quite enjoyable. Actually, I don't mind talaga eating alone. It gives me the opportunity to think, people watch, write, whatever. It's just that in the middle of a work day? Nyaarr. :(
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