Thursday, January 28, 2010
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I love this - from Conan O'Brien's farewell speech on "The Tonight Show":Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. But if you work really hard and you're kind, amazing things will happen. Sigh. I needed that. I've been weepy and tired all week and it's not a really good time. Sigh. Isn't it inspiring? Right now, I just need a lot of good vibes and happy thoughts. Labels: life
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Saturday, January 09, 2010
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I barely survived the first week of the year. Gah. What a very frizzy and tiring week. I spent today at work - I thought my seatmate JR was the one coming in today, it turned out MarkG and Amorga popped in (but not JR). We all had the same idea, although didn't tell each other. :P Obviously, we had a lot of pending left over from the very busy past week. :( I may have been ranty and cross the past week, but I only realized today for one thing I was super grateful for: I didn't have any bad headaches the past week! Okay that sounded a bit scary, but I do get stress headaches sometimes and I hate it because I can't do anything at all. :( Thank goodness the past week I was pretty okay and kept up with the pace - no sleepy and lazy days too! Hope I'll pull through with that - the next few weeks are bound to be busier, still. Oh gosh, I realized, I hope I am not running on pure adrenaline? Eep. Today was a tad productive. Got to do most of the admin stuff to get out of the way on Monday, tried Krispy Kreme's coffee and couldn't resist a donut (heehee!), snacked with Amorga at KFC - can I just say I am so addicted the Twister? I swear! :) To reward myself for coming in on a weekend (and coming home late everyday!), I tried looking for The Elegance of the Hedgehog in Fully Booked, but they were unfortunately out of stock. :( I hope I can still pick up a copy this weekend. I was thinking though I hope not to make Saturdays at work a habit! It's a new year and I feel like I need something different to divert my attention from the stress of work. I kind of miss going to school - it was a distraction and a different kind of stress - but somehow I'm not sure if that's feasible at this point. Just thinking out loud, but I definitely will figure out something for this year. Labels: random
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 I really like this picture from our Christmas party! It was when I - coincidentally, the last of the Far Far Away Girls - won the last coffee maker. Amorga was laughing over something - so her in this picture! :) *The Far Far Away Girls are the coffee addicts in the office! All four of us (Crissy, Amorga, Pau and me) won coffee makers, how funny is that? To think, we like our coffee ready and instant - either via vending machine, convenience store 3-in-1 blend or green straws. We haven't tried brewing, but with this, but why not? Once we figure out the coffee maker, anyway. Labels: random
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Thursday, January 07, 2010
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Let's try this New Year's Resolution Generator (hey, she has a nice name!). This Year, I will: 1. Use my phone to call instead of text - Hmmm. Let's give this a shot. Although I'm a texter by nature talaga. 2. Become an expert on something - Why not? The thing is, I wonder what is that something. 3. Start a business - Scary! I am very risk phobic, as what I learned from school. But you know what, it sounds exciting. I just don't know if I'm up for that this year. 4. Be a better person - Yes, baby steps to be better. First up, the 80% challenge of Crissy and me at work! And also, to stop being fretful over things I can't change. And stop being mean and lazy. 5. Make my bed - Okay. :) 6. Hold the door open for others - I do this! 7. Travel - Yes, please, please, Universe, this is a sign. 8. Enjoy the outdoors - Aiee... maybe when I travel. Haha yes Universe, they are connected! :) So please let it happen. 9. Be me - This is good. Yes, I will be me and love me and forgive me. 10. Listen to my heart - Hmmm. Yes I should. But will also use my mind. ;) Labels: new year
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Tuesday, January 05, 2010
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So. Five days into the new year and I have already cried, almost broke down, become slightly hysterical and just became a plain unhappy clam. :( Fail with myself and my resolutions for this year! Sadness. My new project: stop being so emotional, there is more to this. Detach! And move on from this messy, frustrating set up. Really. I have to. Sigh. Labels: life
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Sunday, January 03, 2010
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What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before? Wear heels (stilettos at that!) on regular basis! If you saw my wardrobe from last year, that definitely is a change! Haha maybe I should try dresses or skirts this year. Girly is the way to go. Other than that, nothing super special. Okay, maybe make full use of my work planner? Gee 2009 was really boring. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't really make resolutions, just wish to worry less and live more and somehow, somehow... I don't know. For this year, I think, I want to. Did anyone close to you give birth? Yes, Gwennie. Did anyone close to you die? No. What countries did you visit? Sadness talaga, none at all the past year. But only because there's going to be a big trip this year. This is me bringing this out to the Universe! Please let E2010 happen!!! What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009? More travel, love (!!!), friendship, happiness! What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? August 1, 2009. Crying buckets, but forget it. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Eeep. Hmm. I can't think of one! This is so sad! What was your biggest failure? Now this... is a lot. And I knoooow I am in a mood right now, rueing (sp?) 2009. Maybe disappointing myself and other people who believed in me. Did you suffer illness or injury? I had cough and colds almost every freaking month of the past year. From someone who was hardly sick in school and even my first four years at work. As in I was never absent from Grade 2 to Year 3 - and only because of a dengue scare. Then in college, I was sick only for a day in First Year (I missed the movie date of my friends) and then that was it. Last year, every month I was hacking and sneezing. :( I should get myself to a pulmo this year. What was the best thing you bought? Shoes! Hahaha! Whose behavior merited celebration? Most people around me! Especially those who put up with me. ;) Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Meeee... :( Where did most of your money go? The car I'm using - car maintenance is expensive!, coffee, shoes (and I'm not even a shoe person). What did you get really, really, really excited about? Hmmm. Not even my vacation leave excited me. Ah, weddings of my friends and a getaway weekday with a good friend. ;) What song(s) will always remind you of 2009? I Gotta Feeling - BEP. Super perk up song! As in always, always makes me happy when I hear it! :D This Time - John Legend. Ahem. Knock You Down - Keri Hilson, Kanye West, Neyo. Love this! :) Halo - Beyonce Jai Ho. Because it reminds me of, well, "Jai Ho." Poker Face & Bad Romance by Lady Gaga. Love her! Too bad I missed her concert. Waking Up in Vegas by Katy Perry. Another concert I missed. :( Break Even, Talk You Down and any other The Script song. Ahem again. Defying Gravity. I burst into song when this plays on the radio! Good Girls Go Bad (or whatever the title is) by Cobra Starship and Leighton Meester. Party in the USA by Miley Cyrus. Hahaha sorry guilty pleasure! ;) Compared to this time last year, are you: i. happier or sadder? Sadder, but more full of hope. ;) ii. thinner or fatter? Fatter. iii. richer or poorer? Poorer. Car maintenance is no joke. What do you wish you'd done more? Go out, have fun, learn more, laugh, love, forgive, understand, pray, live. What do you wish you'd done less of? Bum around, sleep, worry, whine, be negative. How many one-night stands? None. Did you fall in love in 2009? No. What was your favorite TV program? I still love Grey's even if I made it to S5 only. I made it to Gossip Girl's second season. When I was on leave, I became addicted to reruns of ANTM, Whose Line is it Anyway? and my ultimate favorite show, Friends. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Yes. Odd no? I'm not supposed to hate, but this person brings out the worst version of me. She really rubs me the wrong way and I super, super do not like this person. I can rant for the longest time about this person I hate. Because of her the worst me comes out and yes I know the worst me and I HATE it. So now I am working on forgiving myself and this person. What was the best book you read? For someone who really loves her books, I could not find one book that really struck me this year the way the books in the past years have had. I did read/pick up the following: Her Fearful Symmetry by Audrey Niffenegger, Thanks for the Memories by Cecelia Ahern (it was okay), World Without End by Ken Follett (this book I was unprepared for! I wasn't super compelled, but for lack of books at home, I picked it up from my dad's collection. It's a thousand pages long in small font set in 1300s, but I was actually gripped by the story. Strange), The Lost Symbol by Dan Brown (errr) and The Last Summer (of You and Me) by Ann Brashares (have yet to read). What was your greatest musical discovery? A greater appreciation for R&B, just by being Pau's seatmate. What did you want and get? Not much - mostly books. What was your favorite film of this year? Up!!! I love love love that movie. Yes, I cried at the very beginning of the movie! And I was cheering for Carl, Russell and Dug to the very end. I love love love Dug because he reminds me of Dogdog! What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I was at work. It was a normal day. I think I even went home late, as usual. Yes I cried. I will not cry this year. Promise. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? A trip out of the country. Wah! How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009? Hahaha getting better! I don't wear the shoes with socks so much anymore, heels and sandals are the way to go! Baby steps. I rid of a lot of clothes too. What kept you sane? My friends! Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? Ngek, no one. What political issue stirred you the most? Oh how the president of the country was being all... weird when the democracy icon passed away this year. And the clamor for change. Who did you miss? My college friends. Who was the best new person you met? Always people I encounter in my line of work. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009: Oh gosh. Life lesson? That I am my worst enemy, I think. What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself: The July 19, 2009 workshop where in my teammates told me about how they saw me. I tried to remember everything, but I couldn't! It was a very nice experience. The most touching experience you've had this year? Same as the afore-mentioned workshop when we sort of had to bare ourselves to everyone! I cried over some of my friends' stories. What did you like most about yourself this year? I learned to accept a lot of things, career-wise. It helped because when that happened, I felt better about what I was doing and where I was heading. What did you hate most about yourself this year? I had a lot of self-pity this year. As in. My issues about myself surfaced too. :( Quote a song lyric that sums up your year: I could stand by the side and watch this life pass me by So unhappy but safe as could be. So what if it hurts me? So what if I break down? So what if this world just throws me off the edge, my feet run out of ground I gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound Don't care about other pain in front of me 'Cause I'm just trying to be happy, just wanna be happy, yeah -Happy, Leona Lewis Was 2009 a good year for you? No it was not. :( What was your favorite moment of the year? There were a lot of good moments - team building, recharging the weary soul, etc. What was your least favorite moment of the year? I always think... my birthday but then that's my day and how sad naman to think of it that way. Okay - when I am in my low, self-pitying stage? I hate that. As in I feel bad, petty, jealous and small. Where were you when 2009 began? Home. Who were you with? Family. Where will you be when 2009 ends? Home. Who will you be with when 2009 ends? Home. How many concerts did you see in 2009? Only Sitti's album launch in Eastwood. The weather was vacillating between rain or not so it was weird. How about musicals, I hope they count? I did get to see quite a few the past year: Spelling Bee, Spring Awakening and Sweeney Todd. Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2009? Ehe, no. Do a lot of drugs in 2009? Nope. You do anything you are ashamed of this year? Nah. How much money did you spend in 2009? A lot on the car and medicines. I never knew I could spend that much. :( Sigh. It's just financially draining. So traumatized going to the service center, but I know it's a need and a responsibility. What was your proudest moment of 2009? Haha being part of the winning T2 Team in Boso Boso! ;) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2009? June 4, 2009. The day I fell down in the office - as in blag! - because my pointy shoes got caught in a chair and I was rushing. Everyone heard me! Although I admit, it was funny also. If you could go back in time to any moment of 2009 and change something, what would it be? None, really, in retrospect I accepted things as they were. : What are your plans for 2010? I want to travel - saving that for a big trip in the latter part of the year. I also have to confirm what I figured out what I want out of life and move towards that. How are you different now that the year has ended? I'm not sure, but I like to think I am more aware of myself and what I want out of life. And I am slowly changing my perspective on the worst version of me and the concept of life. What are your wishes for the new year? That 2010 will be a kinder and amazing year full of blessings for everyone.
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Friday, January 01, 2010
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Dear 2009,You will receive a long, scathing letter from me once I feel better. It's been a tough year... well, I like to think I got stronger? Sure hope so. Thanks for all the lessons, though. :) xoxo, Please be kind to all of us. Thank you. xoxo, Labels: new year
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